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" I’ve wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but I still love life. That ridiculous weakness is perhaps one of our most pernicious inclinations. What could be more stupid than to persist in carrying a burden that we constantly want to cast off, to hold our existence in horror, yet cling to it nonetheless? "

- Candide, Voltaire (via hansux)

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" My pain was never beautiful or poetic. It was answering the phone mid breakdown and laughing like I was fine. "

I just realised that I haven’t taken a ‘I’m no longer relapsing hard’ selfie. My face is fuller. But I looked sooooooooo sick. Ergh. Why did I do that to myself?

" Recovery takes a lot of time, effort, and planning; but staying sick takes your whole life. "

I want dinner so I said to nan ‘I’m hungry, can you make dinner please?’ I’ve said I’m hungry a few times in recovery but the look on her face still breaks my heart. She looks so relieved.

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self love | Tumblr on We Heart It.

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" It wasn’t like a rain, it was more like a sea,
I didn’t ask for this pain it just came over me. "

- Pink Rabbits by The National (via apaintedpastelprincess)

" I’d rather be alive than thin. Thin, for me, was tired and flaky. My skin was dry, my hair falling out, no sleep, no energy, no motivation. My muscles were beginning to waste away and I said no to my body when it was screaming for nourishment… Thin was hell. Thin was doctors and lectures and an ocean of tears. Today, thin is still what half my mind wants, but the other half is stronger and says “you can recover. you can learn to live again.” I’ll take this life over being thin any day. "

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reblogging this because I need the reminder. 

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